weekend wonders

so my school let out for a four day weekend for mlk day which is pretty cool and over all it has been a good weekend. nothing too exciting but i was fulfilled...so then why do i not feel like it has been...it actually is kinda depressing in a way...it feels like everything is moving so extremely fast and then theres me standing still, sometimes even moving backwards...like when you take a picture but unexpectedly the camera is all out of focus...i feel like that a lot of the time...my friends just think that i dont pay attention and i am purposely "ditzy" and it feels like im watching them...watching them live and i am just sitting there watching it like a rerun late at night. why do i feel this way when all i want to do is to be part of the show instead of viewing it from behind that broken glass?